I had my first accident and it was a doozy

I've been driving for 33 years now and had my first accident this morning. It was my fault and I'm very upset about it. I wasn't doing anything wrong, like driving too fast or talking on the phone or anything, but I came around a curve and didn't slow down enough for a car waiting to turn. I don't think it dawned on me that he was stopped entirely, but I did see he was on the phone. Anyway, I slammed on my brakes but didn't get stopped fast enough.

He hardly had ANY damage to his Wrangler Jeep, but I had smoke pouring out of my crumpled hood and oil running out.



I was trying not to cry. I couldn't think of what to do. It's not like I've done this before, you know!

The guy I hit got out and started yelling at me and told me he was hurt. The ambulance came on got him.

I'm worried about a lawsuit, too. This guy is in his early 30's and a restaurant owner. This happened right in front of his restaurant and everyone came out to check on him. He's lived in our tiny little "Mayberry" all his life and everyone knows him and his wife. He knew the officer, the tow truck driver, everyone. And from what a couple people have told me, he IS the type of person to sue me.

So...my nerves are shot. I've already been worrying about all of the medical bills and insurance problems, then this...the adjustor hasn't checked our van yet but over the phone they told me that it sounds like it's totalled. The van is an '02 and they said if it's leaking the fluids and from what they heard it sounded like it would cost more than it would be worth.

I know all things happen for a reason and I've been asking God what good can come out of this and what His reason could be.